Well, that's probably going to be it for researched posts for awhile. I know it wasn't that great but it took a lot out of me. But it was well worth it; it felt good to write them well for once.
Got a hangover again. Went to a party in Umeda being held by a sort of school. It's more of a cafe that just hires native English speakers to hang around and chat with the customers. Pays 1000 yen an hour. Fine by me; doesn't seem to entail a lot of responsibility, but is extra income and a chance to network a bit.
I did have a bit to drink last night, as a result. I had a good time, but have a headache that seems to be occupying a particular 10 square centimeter space in my head and an overall feeling of lethargy. But it's the first time I've had a complete day off to myself so I'll be damned if I'm not gonna get some writing in.
I realize I've turned into a naturally attractive man. I can't help it. I'm friendly, personable and I've matured a lot. These are attractive qualities whether I like them or not. I love that I have that kind of power and I love the attention, but I realized I really and truly am done with that lifestyle. I'm tired of the chase, and the unraveling of people's facades and walls just to find out they are actually sickly or weak underneath, rather than the opposite. I love the life I'm leading now, as monotonous as it has the potential to be. I love imagining where it will lead me if I stick to it. I dread the thought of what deviation from the course could do to me. It does make social interaction awkward, though. I love being who I am, but apparently so do some women. But Miki really does do it for me. I can't imagine anyone replacing her. Hmm.
Got a hangover again. Went to a party in Umeda being held by a sort of school. It's more of a cafe that just hires native English speakers to hang around and chat with the customers. Pays 1000 yen an hour. Fine by me; doesn't seem to entail a lot of responsibility, but is extra income and a chance to network a bit.
I did have a bit to drink last night, as a result. I had a good time, but have a headache that seems to be occupying a particular 10 square centimeter space in my head and an overall feeling of lethargy. But it's the first time I've had a complete day off to myself so I'll be damned if I'm not gonna get some writing in.
I realize I've turned into a naturally attractive man. I can't help it. I'm friendly, personable and I've matured a lot. These are attractive qualities whether I like them or not. I love that I have that kind of power and I love the attention, but I realized I really and truly am done with that lifestyle. I'm tired of the chase, and the unraveling of people's facades and walls just to find out they are actually sickly or weak underneath, rather than the opposite. I love the life I'm leading now, as monotonous as it has the potential to be. I love imagining where it will lead me if I stick to it. I dread the thought of what deviation from the course could do to me. It does make social interaction awkward, though. I love being who I am, but apparently so do some women. But Miki really does do it for me. I can't imagine anyone replacing her. Hmm.
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