God, that's a lame title. I've been looking into strategies for how to create effective titles and such, and using profanity is, well, completely NOT recommended. But then again, originality is, so I guess my title might work. But then again so might profanity.
Anyhow, on to the point. I'm scared. The cost of moving to a new location is quite a bit higher than I thought, which has driven me to do something I have never done and never wanted to do: mooch off my friends. I particularly dislike it because, in all honesty, I don't know when I can pay them back. It felt nauseous telling them that. However, I must have done something right in regards to our friendships because I got several people to lend me money.
And this is just realtor and landlord fees. I haven't even started saving for the actual move or for cleaning yet. Already $500 in debt and my business hasn't even started.
I keep telling myself this is how it goes: You just have to sweat it out, and not cave in. But I am scared. Caving in is something I've become something of a guru on. Well, in all fairness to myself, it was something that I was BECOMING a guru on. Though I haven't taken on a task this daunting in... well, NEVER, I have made it a point to not quite something just because it isn't going well at this particular moment or because it's a bit tough.
I just keep feeling there's something different this time. Not that this is my "ticket", but that... I cannot fail. Rather, I can only fail if I choose to quit, which I don't see happening. It just feels too right to do this, like this is something I could really kick ass at, if I give it my all.
Speaking of which, I'm going to get back to do some research. A lot of that is gonna be necessary.
Anyhow, on to the point. I'm scared. The cost of moving to a new location is quite a bit higher than I thought, which has driven me to do something I have never done and never wanted to do: mooch off my friends. I particularly dislike it because, in all honesty, I don't know when I can pay them back. It felt nauseous telling them that. However, I must have done something right in regards to our friendships because I got several people to lend me money.
And this is just realtor and landlord fees. I haven't even started saving for the actual move or for cleaning yet. Already $500 in debt and my business hasn't even started.
I keep telling myself this is how it goes: You just have to sweat it out, and not cave in. But I am scared. Caving in is something I've become something of a guru on. Well, in all fairness to myself, it was something that I was BECOMING a guru on. Though I haven't taken on a task this daunting in... well, NEVER, I have made it a point to not quite something just because it isn't going well at this particular moment or because it's a bit tough.
I just keep feeling there's something different this time. Not that this is my "ticket", but that... I cannot fail. Rather, I can only fail if I choose to quit, which I don't see happening. It just feels too right to do this, like this is something I could really kick ass at, if I give it my all.
Speaking of which, I'm going to get back to do some research. A lot of that is gonna be necessary.
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