It's been awhile. I decided August was my month to get back in the swing of things. In many ways I've been neglectful, in others extremely hard working. I managed to take care of all the major things fairly quickly; moving in, getting new students, buying all the necessary appliances and furniture. But I've neglected to stick to my routine of writing, studying, preparing and exercising for a certain amount of time every day. Despite the fact that I'm going to Vegas in a matter of weeks, I've decided now is a good a time as any to start back up. The sooner I get started the easier it'll be to maintain a routine.
Work has consumed the majority of my time and energy, unfortunately pushing writing out of the way. Or rather, it had temporarily pushed it out of the way. I'm going to do it again, because I remember that while I thoroughly enjoy the work I do, it is ultimately just a means to an end, a greater end which I imagine I will enjoy even more thoroughly.
Although I generally wish to provide myself with 60 to 90 minutes a day for writing I've been trifling in other things which have whittled my time down to about 20 minutes today. I really am into philosophy and thinking, to the extent that I would almost consider it a debilitating addiction sometimes. It's very easy to get wrapped up in debate and discussion, which is fine if that is what you feel your purpose is, but I don't feel it's mine. Like many other things I feel it's simply one among many other tools which I could use to achieve my purpose, and therefore is best if delved into with moderation. The only thing I really wish to lose myself in and sacrifice my time and energy for is my purpose. Writing is much closer to that than arguing with people is. But I suppose that's my father's influence in me coming out. I find it a handy tool, but an escapist tool sometimes as well.
My curiousity has been on a religious slant lately. I suppose because it fascinates me in that although I don't believe in any particular religion or doctrine per se I do believe in the existence of something or things beyond our realm of comprehension. I've actually been watching a number of videos on or about atheism and reading up on it a bit, and it's got me questioning my own standpoint and I can feel an increasing interest in science and a desire to more rationally understand the world around me. I find this intriguing because I consider myself to have an intuiting personality rather than a rational one. I'm not quite sure how to reconcile the two, but I have a feeling (the intuitive side of me coming out) that understanding science more will help. And this does tie into my desire to write more science fiction like stories as well.
Work has consumed the majority of my time and energy, unfortunately pushing writing out of the way. Or rather, it had temporarily pushed it out of the way. I'm going to do it again, because I remember that while I thoroughly enjoy the work I do, it is ultimately just a means to an end, a greater end which I imagine I will enjoy even more thoroughly.
Although I generally wish to provide myself with 60 to 90 minutes a day for writing I've been trifling in other things which have whittled my time down to about 20 minutes today. I really am into philosophy and thinking, to the extent that I would almost consider it a debilitating addiction sometimes. It's very easy to get wrapped up in debate and discussion, which is fine if that is what you feel your purpose is, but I don't feel it's mine. Like many other things I feel it's simply one among many other tools which I could use to achieve my purpose, and therefore is best if delved into with moderation. The only thing I really wish to lose myself in and sacrifice my time and energy for is my purpose. Writing is much closer to that than arguing with people is. But I suppose that's my father's influence in me coming out. I find it a handy tool, but an escapist tool sometimes as well.
My curiousity has been on a religious slant lately. I suppose because it fascinates me in that although I don't believe in any particular religion or doctrine per se I do believe in the existence of something or things beyond our realm of comprehension. I've actually been watching a number of videos on or about atheism and reading up on it a bit, and it's got me questioning my own standpoint and I can feel an increasing interest in science and a desire to more rationally understand the world around me. I find this intriguing because I consider myself to have an intuiting personality rather than a rational one. I'm not quite sure how to reconcile the two, but I have a feeling (the intuitive side of me coming out) that understanding science more will help. And this does tie into my desire to write more science fiction like stories as well.
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