I often wonder if my own range of moods is normal or typical, or if it's a bit above average. I consider myself a sensitive person, not necessarily in the sense that I am hurt or emotionally affected easily, but I feel my own moods and experiences more deeply than most people. I often understand other people's states more accurately than most other people as well. I understand when others are nervous, calm, happy, confused, upset, bored, etc. very perceptively.
I am in a great mood now, which is often the result of wading through bullshit for a short period of time, whether self-induced (through misperception) or circumstantial. Here's what I realized this time around:
I am not the best. I probably never will be. But fuck it. I'm also not the worst, nor will I most likely ever be. And in many regards, I'm better than most. I'm a better teacher than most. I'm a better boyfriend than most. I'm a better friend than most. I'm smarter and more perceptive than most. I'm more creative than most. I'm more successful than most. And you know what else?
I'm only gonna get better. And better. And better.
And when that awareness hits me, I feel awesome. Because in the end, that's all it's about: You cannot be someone else. But you can be the awesomest you in existence, ever. And once you reach that point, you can be even more awesome. I think that's amazing. As good or great as I am now, I'm only going to get better. As are you. As are the people around you. Your whole community. Your city, your country... this whole world.
Being alive is a grand thing. Being witness to millenia of growth and improvement is a blessing, it's inspiring. Even being witness to all the negativity and complaining is grand: we have the FREEDOM now to express anything we wish. How can that not bring you joy?
Really understand your world. Become aware of it. There are a multitude of blessing hidden away from plain sight, from first impressions. They are in the smiles of strangers, the courtesy of a kind person, the friends and family who say "hello" to you for no reason, the questions people ask you about you, the communities you belong to.
Oops, time for work!
I am in a great mood now, which is often the result of wading through bullshit for a short period of time, whether self-induced (through misperception) or circumstantial. Here's what I realized this time around:
I am not the best. I probably never will be. But fuck it. I'm also not the worst, nor will I most likely ever be. And in many regards, I'm better than most. I'm a better teacher than most. I'm a better boyfriend than most. I'm a better friend than most. I'm smarter and more perceptive than most. I'm more creative than most. I'm more successful than most. And you know what else?
I'm only gonna get better. And better. And better.
And when that awareness hits me, I feel awesome. Because in the end, that's all it's about: You cannot be someone else. But you can be the awesomest you in existence, ever. And once you reach that point, you can be even more awesome. I think that's amazing. As good or great as I am now, I'm only going to get better. As are you. As are the people around you. Your whole community. Your city, your country... this whole world.
Being alive is a grand thing. Being witness to millenia of growth and improvement is a blessing, it's inspiring. Even being witness to all the negativity and complaining is grand: we have the FREEDOM now to express anything we wish. How can that not bring you joy?
Really understand your world. Become aware of it. There are a multitude of blessing hidden away from plain sight, from first impressions. They are in the smiles of strangers, the courtesy of a kind person, the friends and family who say "hello" to you for no reason, the questions people ask you about you, the communities you belong to.
Oops, time for work!
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